I feel like I hit a wall-and there’s no one to pick up the pieces of me.

Those who I thought would, are bystanders just watching.

This too shall pass.

It always does….and I always grow stronger.

It hits me as hard as running into a cement wall.

It feels like plummeting 500 feet into freezing cold water.

For a second I can’t breathe.

I feel myself falling into the moment.

I try to pull it together before anyone sees.

I can’t fall apart.

I’ll keep going until the next time this happens-get through it-and keep going again.

That’s what life is all about right? I’ll make it through this.

Give me strength.

Angel and I turned in our change today that we have been collecting for-E-V-E-R. Obviously we’re putting it towards the wedding, cause that’s where all of our extra money goes these days! We were surprisingly shocked when all of our money was counted we had a grand total of….

….. $492.oo!!! Yippeeeee! Centerpieces here we come 🙂

Wedding shoes are in…
and you guessed it-just like with everything else
I’m on the fence about them!

Can you blame a girl for always thinking there’s something better out there?!

Tonight: Putting the boys to bed early and having some wine with my other half 🙂

Trying to see if we can fit one of these into our budget!!! Ohhhh can you imagine all the pictures, haha.

Ohhhhh mother’s guilt how I hate you.

Wedding shoes…ordered

Reception shoes…bought on Friday and L-O-V-E!

Bridesmaids Shoes…finally decided

Undergarments…found crynolin need bra top

First fitting…scheduled

Count so far: 36 yes 5 no

P.s. I am trying really hard to keep all of my RSVP’s in the same place…and if you know me, you know what a feat that is!

I’m tired of being exhausted allllll the time. . .

…when do I get a break?

I have been very neglectful to my blog this past week, and I apologize. Almost every night after work this week I was at an old friend’s house consoling her because she lost her father last Sunday. My prayers are with her and her family…

Wedding news!!!! As you may have read we began mailing out invitations over the past two weeks and a few days ago we started receiving reply’s in the mail. Amidst all the invitation craziness we somehow lost our mailbox key too, so we had to have a new key core placed in so we could actually check our mail!! Ohhhh our luck haha!

I would love to receive more like this one!

Count: 11 Yes 2 NO

Wow! 3 months till our wedding. I feel like it is going by entirely too fast. I’m trying to take in and absorb every emotion and thought I am having throughout our wedding planning process so I can get the most out of this experience. Yesterday we went and had Angel fitted for his tux, and picked out the rest for the groomsmen, our two sons, and our ring bearer. I don’t want to give away too much but one hint that I will give you is this: WHITE! Invitations are going out by the bunches each day, and I’m still contemplating whether or not I want to do a program of some sort. OHHH and the biggest news is that I found out when and where my bridal shower is YAY. . .now i just have to find the perfect dress- any suggestions ???!